A Hugger Mugger of thoughts

I am currently in Switzerland - looking out across at those majestic trio of mountains, the Eiger, the Mönch and the Jungfrau.

It is a good place to gather thoughts.

I read a poignant story today - you can read it here http://laurencemoffitt.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/a-very-recent-encounter.html
One brave woman. Her story motivates me because it is for her and others like her that I keep on going at this research. It is also of course, for me  - part of my healing journey.

I am struggling a bit at the moment having decided to write the methodology section of my thesis. I find reading about phenomenology, epistemology, ontology and anything really to do with philosophy hard. But I am getting there slowly. I have read almost all the books and papers I wanted to read  before writing and today I have come up with  a structure for this section. Although this thesis is only 35000 words (largely because I have been given credit for previous work) it is still a lot of work.

The brethren continue to confuse my professional with my private life - they are to some extent intertwined but what I do in my private life has nothing to do with my professional one. This blog is a personal blog, it is intended to chart my journey, record my reflections, keep track of my state of mind, talk about emerging insights etc. It is not a professional one and has little if anything to do with my work as a therapist.

A number of former brethren are engaging in activities of remembrance - I took part when they came to Beckenham where I live. We tied yellow ribbons on the gates of the local meeting 'room' with the names of family members we have lost on them. Yellow ribbons are appearing in various places - for current pictures go to http://peebsnet.com More are waiting to be added. I like the idea - it is peaceful and non confrontational and yet makes the point that people like the woman in the story above, still cannot have normal relationships with their families.

I wonder if other groups go to such lengths to present a wonderful public face whilst behind the scenes treat people as the mother and sister did in the story above. It feels very confusing to me - very split. How can a group of people behave simultaneously in such diametrically opposing ways?