My mother

Just over a week ago my mother died in her sleep on the 12th june at 7am. Her last days were not easy - in fact her last two years were not easy but neither particularly was her life.
Her funeral is Monday 27th June - there will be a lot of people there, people who have not seen her for years, people who did not come to visit her when she was in the care homes or the hospital but they will be there at the funeral. What is that all about?

Also at the funeral is likely to be her oldest child, her first born, her son Roger. For over 30 years he did not come anywhere near us then he began visiting every 2-3 years and more recently every few months. But in her final hours, he did not come. Will he bring a group of brethren with him to the funeral? Probably. How would my mother react to that - she would not want them there and if he is there, she would want him to stand with us and not apart.

I find this all so painful and would love to hear other's experiences.